Aw, crap, I’m two weeks late. Lots of things, briefly.
Personal
Katy and Kelley came to visit, friends from college. It was incredible, and the word of the day: l’chaim! Katy sort of saved my sanity last summer, and I was glad to get to show them around the town I’ve been talking such big game about for so long now. We went to the train shop. A couple of friends are coming down to drive me up to chicago. A friend from here is coming to visit in chicago this summer. I like this visiting Sam trend.
Leaving Albuquerque (move date in less than three weeks) is as always sad. But I think I’ve finally learned object permanence with regards to my city, and leaving doesn’t feel traumatic this time. I’m excited for the move, and I feel stupid for leaving behind so many wonderful things and people.
It’s no secret that I’ve been single for too long. A good friend observed that I never exactly try to remedy that. Point. I’ve been finding new, interesting, and unhelpful ways to obsess on this question.
I’ve been reading Sophie’s World and thinking a lot about how ideas just cold happen to us. When you get an idea or have a reaction, it isn’t something you choose, it’s something that happens in your mind. I don’t feel responsible for much of what happens in my brain, but there’s nobody else responsible… Like a dream. Also, one person’s experience of a dark empty theatre is always different from another’s, perfect communication and equal experience impossible. It’s lonely-making, and inspiring to do the hard work of exactitude. In this way you touch something divine, and you share it.
Also went to Kansas with my great friend Summer. Kansas is flat, in case you’ve never been there.
Professional
Macbeth came and went. It feels like it was all a dream, now; I cut my hair off and shaved my beard. I was ready to open by the time we closed. It continually became more and more interesting to work on as the run progressed. It was great to feel so much a part of the core creative team that was building the show: for better or for worse, many of the things that made it on stage in that show, specifically and thematically, were results of my ideas and instincts. I’m chalking it up to the overwhelmingly positive collision of playing a giant role and playing it in a truly collaborative environment. For the first time as an actor, I felt totally trusted, and that I deserved that trust.
A break from Shakespeare is in order; I’ve been doing it nearly nonstop for a year.
Thinking about coming back to Albuquerque next winter to work on one or two things, if it becomes possible to do so. We’ll see.
Political
Watch the Democratic Primary debate. If you’re like most people, you missed it, and you aren’t aware that Mr. Internet has the video. Well, he does.
