Archive for December, 2006

vs. Blockbuster

December 10, 2006


You’re sellin’ sexism.
You’re sellin’ racism.
You’re sellin’ anything you can get your fuckin’ hands on.
So with no evacuation -
Let California fall into the fuckin ocean.

I recently had an audition for a Blockbuster spot. That was odd. I didn’t get the gig, but it brought up some interesting ethical issues. Shadows of things to come. It is, of course, bigger than Blockbuster. It’s the first episode in what could become a long and painful relationship between me as actor and Corporate America.

I wish my time in circus school had covered this kind of thing. There were no ethics of acting classes. The closest I ever managed to get was when I asked an agent (last Good Friday, as it chanced): “Do you know any actors who decline to do commercials on political grounds – not just one or two, but largely, as a category – because they fundamentally oppose what Corporate America is doing to what is left of our souls? Or is there a tacit understanding in LA that in order to act in this country you have to accept and even endorse it?”

Her answer, in so many words: “You endorse it or you starve.” From that point on in the conversation I was flagged as “political”, and in her imagination, would do “independent work”.

This time round, I was smart enough not to discuss it with my (fledgeling, trial) agent. Instead, I sent a letter out to a long list of intelligent people. Excerpts from that letter:

I don’t really appreciate Blockbuster. They censor their movies in a pretty deuschebaggish fashion, and they’re part of the megaplex of corporations that – for various reasons, some legitimate, some aesthetic – make me want to vomit.

The question is, then – can I, in good conscience, put my face on their product?

The basic arguments kicking around my head for and against are these:

Nay
They’re evil. I’ll be putting my face on an economic model and a cultural paradigm that I oppose. The money isn’t worth the spiritual cost.

Yea
They’re going to make the commercial anyway. My impact on their business is minimal, and refusing to do the spot is economically meaningless. I might as well take their money.

It gets better. To get good roles in good cities for good pay, you need an agent. An agent won’t take you unless they think you can make them money. Commercials are money. No commercials, no contract, no agent, no work.

So here’s a thought. Make the Lord my manager: give twenty percent of proceeds of commercials that I feel less than comfortable with promoting to some group, cause, or organization dedicated to correcting the ills associated with the company I just did a spot for.

Like, in this case, giving money to the ACLU.

Blood money.

So my question is this: does giving blood money to worthy parties justify taking commercials I’m less than happy about?

The range of responses I got was fascinating. Excerpted and summarized, they go like this:

  • Do it, and give the bloodmoney. It’s intelligent and effective. Taking the high road is putting personal principle over potential change. It’s not about the heart you have, but what you do with it.
  • If you’re gonna lose sleep over it, it’s not worth it. It’s not about what you do, but the heart you have doing it.
  • Make the Lord your manager, but negotiate for better terms: 10% or less.
  • Don’t do it. Seek first the kingdom, and all else will follow.
  • Everyone has the right to draw the line somewhere. If it makes you want to vomit, that’s probably a good place to put the line.
  • You have to do it. This is a faustian bargain which you simply must make if you are serious about being an actor as your profession.
  • Tithing at the age of 23 is bullshit. Invest in yourself. Use the money to create opportunities to do more meaningful work.
  • Do it: only major success can bear the weight of moral responsibility.
  • Take it. This is capitalism; it’s all blood money.
  • Just say no.
  • You think that by placing your face in a Blockbuster spot you’re supporting all the things that they do. That’s bullshit.
  • If you’re in it for the Art, acting is a hobby.
    If you’re in it for a living, then you can’t afford to be this distracted.

Of course, taking the audition meant I had already agreed to do it if they cast me. Otherwise I’d just have been wasting their time, and that’s purely amateur night. Not an option.

After long thought, I’ve decided that I do have to draw the line somewhere. And that will just have to be a messy process of evaluating each audition as it comes up. As I become more successful, that line can get closer to where I want it: no commercials, ever. But for now, Blockbuster isn’t past that line.

I don’t want my punkrock alter ego to have to ask me an ethical question that I can’t face. Or the Lord, for that matter.

So this is something like my intuitive compilation of all of the responses:

All people at all income brackets bear the weight of moral responsibility. But this is a faustian bargain I’m going to have to make; so OK, then goddamnit I’m gonna get a better deal out of the devil for my soul, because potential change is as important as personal principle. And if I were in it for a living, I wouldn’t be: I’m an actor, but I’m not stupid. Seek first the kingdom, and all else will follow.

So yeah. I guess I’d take the spot, and I’d give the money.

11.06

December 2, 2006

Everything but the girl, this month.

Personal

Had a brief attempt to woo a wonderful friend of mine, but that went south. Friendship totally salvaged though. Beyond that, I’m sort of amazed at all of the wonderful things that are happening to me.

Moved in with Neal into a Hacienda which is gorgeous, built in the 1880s, working fireplace, totally killer sound system (pair of tower klipsches given to me por gratis paired up with a subwoofer the size of three small dogs), and the most unnecessarily wonderful patio ever. Visited my brother and his girlfriend for Thanksgiving, had ridiculously good sushi, saw some old hooligans from high school and my oldest friend. Got the new mac, new bikebag deluxe. Blue House and Senate! Started up on Yoga again, but not, as in Ptown, for survival: this time it’s recreational. There’s a job downtown on a bike chariot that I want, but my mother would kill me. Christmas is coming up, which I absolutely love. Finally and best, I’ve set up my livingspace in such a way as to cause myself limitless enjoyment. I finally got it right.

I look forward to an unparalleled winter.

I’ve been reading William Gibson ( books ). This chunk has very nearly burned itself into my memory:

The wind tugs at her hair, longer now than when she lived here, and a feeling that she can’t name comes like something she has always known, and she has no interest in climbing farther, because she knows now that the home she remembers is no longer there. Only its shell, humming in the wind, where once she lay wrapped in blankets, smelling machinist’s grease and coffee and fresh-cut wood.

Where, it comes to her, she was sometimes happy, in the sense of being somehow complete, and ready for what another day might bring.

And knows she is no longer that, and that while she was, she scarcely knew it.

She hunches her shoulders, drawing her neck down into the carapace of Skinner’s jacket, and imagines herself crying, though she knows she won’t, and climbs back down.

Somehow complete and ready for tomorrow is I think what I’m working towards.

Professional

Who knew the burque would be so good to me?

Playing a role in Tricklock’s preview of a production in development, Belladonna, which promises to be awesome. I’ve also been jonesing to work with these cats since I was about fourteen, so that’s nice. It’s a fairytale, complete with muppetlike narrators and fuzzy creatures, an evil overlord named Evil Overlord, and so on. With bloody puppet-fights, the fuzzy sidekick chewing off the heroine’s leg (who at this point, inexplicably, can only speak in Stevie Nicks lyrics), you know. Standard fairytale stuff.

Playing Mercutio in Albuquerque Little Theatre’s production of R and J. I’m a little hesitant to work on R and J for another three months – bringing my total to something like eight months in a ten month period – but fuck it. It’s Mercutio.

Discussing the possibility of helping to develop a small puppet show with Loren Kahn Puppet and Object Theatre.

Agent sent me on an audition. Blockbuster. Casting director seemed to think I was right for it. It’s in the producers hands now; we’ll see.

Political

It’s world AIDS day today. In keeping with the cyberpunk theme, I’m offering you this month the World Community Grid. They install a little agent on your computer that uses your computer’s Idle time to compute small packets of data to assist in research projects for the good of the planet. Like fighting AIDS.

That’s called an interwebnet supercomputer, and it strikes me as the beginning of something obvious and huge.